Thanksgiving 2017… There was no turkey. There were no greens that ain’t come in the can, no desserts that ain’t come out the box; none of that yesterday. It was my parents, who had just returned from their cruise to the Bahamas & I, some turkey burgers, and I had thrown some fried rice in with my burger. That was Thanksgiving 2017, pretty good, huh? Truthfully, it was. What started out as a day I couldn’t wait to be over changed as the day went on; let’s talk about it for a minute.
First, my parents. I’ve said it many of times, but growing up I was not appreciative of my parents like I should have been. It wasn’t until I left the service and moved back home that my attitude towards them changed. I began to see what they had been trying to teach us all those years growing up. How to manage your money, how to handle stressful situations, how to deal with people. The importance of cleaning your room and how it can translate to any area of life became clearer. Now I’m not saying my room was a pigsty, but it could’ve been a little cleaner than it was growing up. Where people see my parents at now, is not where they’ve always been. If I had time to tell the story in depth I would, but at 27 going on 28, I appreciate now more than ever the sacrifices made and the lessons taught. Gratefulness doesn’t even come close as to what I felt being able to spend yesterday with them.
Second, my circle ain’t even a circle, that’s how small it is. In high school, I worked so hard to be accepted by people who truthfully, God kept me from getting close with. Didn’t see it that way then, but looking back now, I see why. Fast forward, at almost 28, I can really care less who rock with me and who doesn’t. I’m ok with not being liked by everyone, for whatever the reason may be. People change like the weather, or as my father would say, “change more than they change their draws,” and it’s true. I’m sure some would say that previous statement applies to me, and I’d tell you that you’re right, I did change. I changed because I got tired of trying to fit in a bubble; make someone else feel comfortable. I changed because I wanted to grow. I changed because I wanted more for myself. Sure, I just graduated with my Bachelors and I’m grateful for it, but there’s more, but let me get back to the original topic though.
So, for those few individuals, and they know who they are, thank you. Y’all keep me in line, keep me accountable, and help keep my focus on what really matters. To everyone that changed up over the years, thank you too. You’ve allowed me to fully embrace myself, and all that the future holds.
Last, and certainly not least, the faithful few who have supported the music since day one, and the ones who have along the way. I can’t say thank you enough to y’all man. In a world where everyone wants to be a musician, somedays it’s a struggle to get up and write without comparing yourself to everyone else. Many days I wanted to stick to the engineering side of things because of what it looked like now, and it was in those moments one of you said something encouraging that put it all back into perspective. Those words have meant more to me than you’ll ever know. Having people who support and not looking for the low because you know me, or connected to me in some way means so much. Thank you doesn’t come close in expressing how I feel.
Now, I know I said that was the last thing, but I can’t forget God. Through everything, you’ve been there. This year I have truly come to know and understand that you’ll never leave me, nor forsake me. That you’re there even when I don’t feel you there. I’ll never be able to say thank you enough for what you’ve done and who you have shown yourself to be in my life over the last year and a half.
I’ll never lose my posture of gratitude. Praises will forever be on my lips because of who you are to me, and that can be summed up in one word…